An End

Well, the end of another semester draws near. As I look back on the past 9 months I can't help but be overwhelmed by how much I have grown and how much I have been blessed. 9 months ago I was in a sad place and so scared about the future. Though my circumstances are still practically the same, I have changed. It's amazing how trials can do that.

So, in commemoration of this year I decided to compile a list of the things I have learned.

1. We are never alone. No matter how dark the path seems we are never walking it alone.
2. School is important. Learn all you can. Not only does it help you see the world differently, but it also helps you to know yourself better(and as you can tell I am not an English major.)
3. Laughter really is the best medicine. Laugh about anything and everything. 
4. There can be joy found no matter the circumstances of life. Remember happiness is everywhere, you just have to find it.
5. To love someone means to accept them for who they are and seeing them as they may become. To love is to look past their flaws and see their potential. However, it does not mean you need to submit yourself to being used, or carrying heavy burdens that are not yours to bear. 
6. It's okay to be sad as long as you pick yourself up and start again.
7. Ice cream helps you not be so sad.
8. Friends and family can be your biggest support, even if you don't realize it at first.
9. The Atonement of Jesus Christ is real. It is real, it is true, and it creates miracles. 
10. Prayer is powerful. 
11. Though bad things happen, there are good and beautiful things in this world.
12. Running is the cure for stress, sadness, annoyance, anger, frustration, sorrow, loneliness,etc. Also, chocolate. That works too.
13. Music is heavenly. It has a power that nothing else on this earth has. 
14. There is strength found in scripture.
15. The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints is the one true church on the earth today. 

And that's just a few things. All I know is that I have so much faith and so much happiness. Through trials we learn things we couldn't have any other way. We become something better than we are. Looking back on this year I know I have been blessed beyond anything I deserve, and for that I am grateful. And as this school year comes to an end I am so thankful for the new beginnings! Time for more learning and more growing. This is going to be a good year, I can tell. 

Good

 Tonight I just listened to a video on youtube, "Mormon Tabernacle Choir Flash-mob". (Yeah, that's right. MoTab has it going on!). They sang a fight song from the Revolutionary War at a memorial event. It filled me with so much peace and hope and thankfulness to those who fought, and continue to fight, for our freedom.

Yesterday were the horrible events at the Boston Marathon. I was appalled. Whenever I hear stories like that I am filled with such a deep sadness. I just don't understand how there can be such evil in the world. It pains me to think of the horrors that occur every day throughout the world. And yet I know there a good people in the world. When people come together to lift each other up, when they love and support each other, when you see people comfort those they don't even know, that gives me hope.

Though dark and scary things exist, the world is a good place with good people. There is beauty found everyday if we're willing to see it. Darkness cannot exist if there is light. And guess what? There is always light as long as there is love. That may sound cheesy but it's true. Love is the ultimate conqueror. It replaces despair with hope, sadness with joy, darkness with light.

I'll leave again today with another quote(this is another of my favorites. Get ready)

There was never a night or problem that could defeat sunrise or hope.-Bern Williams

There's good in the world, remember that.

Swimming Lessons

 Let me tell you a story.


Years ago, I was a swimmer. Not to brag, but for a little 12 year old kid I was pretty good. No Michael Phelps, but I was decent enough for coaches to push me harder than the others and tell me to join the swim team. It was pretty big deal back then, don't judge. Also, I beat all the boys. (Seeing the most popular guy in school punch the sand after getting second place is still one of the sweetest moments of my life.) My coach wanted me to keep going, but I was scared. Moving to a new swim team and while only knowing freestyle, how could I possibly do that? What if no one liked me? What if I was actually a bad swimmer and embarrassed myself in front of everyone?

All those thoughts now seem so dumb. You only know one stroke? Well, I'm sure they'll teach you the other ones. No one will like you? I'm sure at least one person will befriend the new girl. But you know, that didn't logically make sense in my head. Nope, those thoughts were the most terrifying possibilities that could ever happen. So what did I do? I quit.

My dad spent months/ years trying to get me back into the water and I wouldn't go. I still haven't  jumped in the pool other than for recreation since then. And that makes me so sad. I let all those 'what if's' turn into the biggest, what if I had kept going? I probably/most likely/most definitely wouldn't be an Olympic gold medalist or record setter, but I do sometimes think of all those people I didn't meet and the experiences I never had.

Now, I'm not one of those people who believes in continually beating yourself up over the past. There's nothing I can do about it now. And because I didn't swim, I was able to focus on piano, which has become one of the greatest joys in my life. I can think of nothing more peaceful than sitting down at the bench and letting those keys make music.

I guess the point I'm trying to make is that I allowed myself to miss out on an opportunity because I was scared. And that is no reason to quit. You can be nervous, scared, downright terrified. But don't let that stop you. You never know what could happen. Maybe you'll become the next great athlete, or the next rockstar. But at the very least you tried and you learned. Failure is a verb, it requires action. When people say to me, "Well, that did not turn out how I was expecting," I think to myself, "Good for you. You failed-you tried." Don't let fear of failure keep you from taking those steps.

To end, let me leave you with one of my favorite sayings:

"Shoot for the moon. Even if you miss, you'll land among the stars." - Les Brown

Go out, be happy, have fun, and don't be afraid to fail. You never know what could happen.